Good news!!!

What an afternoon that was! I swear, it was like de ja vu. I had the tests as mentioned in my previous post. When the sonologist, while doing my Trans-V ultrasound, changed expressions, my heart raced! She found a growth, I saw it on the monitor.

Me : Ano yan? 

Sonologist : (silence)

You think I stopped there? 

Me : Miss, is that a cyst? 

Sonologist (finally heard me) : Yes, Ma’am pero okay lang yan. 

I didn’t know what to think. I panicked a little bit more when she stepped out of the room to talk to the doctor outside. 

Call me paranoid and nerbiyosa. I’ll be first to admit that I am. Plus yon na nga, when you’ve been told previously that you have cancer, going through tests like this will really make you feel anxious. I’m surprised I was still able to eat a hearty lunch prior to the ultrasound.

I had to bring my ultrasound and blood chem plus hematology results to my Onco at 3pm. On the sheet of paper, I read somewhere that they found a small myoma. A myoma is really common and it’s not necessarily cancer. Still. I was worried! I hate it when I feel that way. I hated it even more when the nurse at the clinic told me I was #10! Sometimes I don’t like the fact that my Oncologist is popular. It was going to be a long wait … an agonizing one.

Thanks talaga to technology, I was able to distract myself while waiting in the reception area. I managed to play a few Candy Crush rounds, too. About an hour later, I was finally ushered into her clinic. We said our hi’s and hello’s and I handed over the results to her.

Me : Doctora, they found something in the ultrasound. 

Doc : Really? Goes over the results

I wanted to faint. I felt my heartbeat and it was going so fast. Prayed, prayed, prayed. 

Doc : It’s a myoma but it’s nothing. 

Me : Nothing? You mean we don’t need to do anything? Don’t we need to take it out? 

Doc : No, it’s so tiny! 

You know what this feels like, right? The term “nabunutan ng tinik” can certainly describe what I felt at that precise moment!

I thought of N, the kids, my Mom, my brother, even my Dad and I wanted to cry right there.

Oh and before I forget! I AM IN REMISSION. I heard it straight from the horse’s mouth. Remission in the case of a cancer patient is when there are no signs nor symptoms of cancer in the body. ZERO. NADA. ZILCH. WALA!!!

All I could think about as I left the hospital earlier was … WOW I’M IN REMISSION. WOW.

I have an amazing God. That’s all I can say.

P.S. Lord, since you are so amazing … please help me lose the 7 lbs I gained since March. Thank you! Amen