Chemo Cycle 2

It was pretty much the same for me. The anxiety was still there. It arrived as soon as my Onco started with the infusion. I hate the feeling. I was having a mini-anxiety attack and it felt so uncomfortable. Fortunately, after I prayed about it, it went away and I even managed to fall asleep this time. I was in deep sleep when N arrived after picking up Sabine from school. I fell asleep again after that. So, thank you Lord for answering my prayer!

It's been 2 days since then and I'm okay. I feel the same way I did the first time around. Slightly gassy, always sleepy, generally lazy. But nothing more than that. I'm putting off taking Zantac to address the gas, until tonight. I wanna take it right before walking over to Friday Bible Study with our new-found group. Good thing it happens at our neighbor's! 

I'm expecting some constipation to happen within the next few days because that's what happened the first time, so I'm loading up on water ... lots and lots! I'm not a huge fan of water (bad person) so this is really a challenge for me. 

Tomorrow, Anissa's competing with her dance crew at the Mall of Asia. HELLO HUGE CROWD. I'm bent on going because this is her first competition this year and I have to be there to support. I'm not nauseous or fatigued, just gassy. I can do this. With a face mask (ugh). But I will.

Thanks for all the prayers, I'm good!!! 

P.S. Planning to talk to my Onco about these anxiety attacks. I hope she'll allow me to take something a few hours before each cycle to calm me down! 

Sleepless in Bed

12 hours from now, I'll be sitting on that La-Z Boy-looking chair again, while trying to watch TV or maybe reading my book of the moment. 

I'm not going to lie ... I'm anxious about going for chemo cycle 2. The only difference is that this time, I know exactly what to expect. So I guess the anxious feeling isn't as intense as the first time. But this is why I'm in bed, but can't sleep.

I've requested for more prayers for tomorrow and I'm humbled by the response I got from friends --- close and otherwise. 

In not so many words, let me just say that today was the most challenging day for N and I since this journey began. It was overwhelming, to say the least. I found myself focusing on this bible verse. We are so blessed to have neighbors whom we can talk to whenever we need guidance and reassurance. 3 houses down from ours live the most accommodating and warm couple in this small community. Pastor R and his wife, A have also invited us to be part of their D-group. We've only joined them once but N and I are in agreement that we want to keep going back. Anyway, all it took was one text message from N to Pastor R and at around 9pm we were seated in their living room and Pastor R was praying for us.

I continued to pray when we got home ... I needed time alone to talk to the Lord in the manner that I usually do. I can't have anyone else in the room when I do this. 

So anyway ... I should've hit the sack a lot earlier than this. If you're reading this, please say a quiet prayer for me as I face the frenemy again tomorrow. Thank you and God bless you!